I have little to say today, and little time to say it.
I prayed this morning that God would keep me at the bottom until I’ve learned how to climb. I am aching. I am sore and in pain and the bottom is flat on my back, with it’s wrenched muscles and stiff awkwardness, for long portions of time. The bottom is standing and seeing my crooked frame in the mirror, the only time I lean heavily to the left, and realizing it’s not quite as painful as it looks. The bottom is wondering how I’m going to cook that dinner menu I planned so well. The bottom is looking around my house from a different perspective and learning to be okay with dirty dishes and clutter until I can get up again. The bottom is realizing I’m weak, much more weak than I thought, and realizing I have a lot to learn.
I’m surprisingly happy though. I’m looking at every verse I read, every song, every quote and I’m seeing that having a lot to learn isn’t something new, it’s just something I want now.
I’m excited to see where God can take a girl when she surrenders again, at the bottom.
I’m so sorry your back is out again. I pray for healing and for you to learn the things you want to and maybe learn some things you didn’t know you needed to <3
I hope you are feeling much better now, and able to be the supermom you normally are!